A picture from a recent keynote, Courage to Birth Dreams, where I shared my dream of one day letting myself become a painter, after ignoring the urge for twenty years.
My abstract art evolves like life. It’s messy and chaotic. As in life, I focus on what I know and trust that everything will eventually work together for good. I start by randomly, yet intuitively, layering the canvas with color, texture, and expressive marks. For a while, individual facets may not necessarily relate. Then all of a sudden, magic happens and clarity begins to surface. Shapes take form and I find myself solving a puzzle with clues that have been there all along.
Slowly, balance finds its way into the chaos and creates meaning in the composition of my art, as well as in my life. I see now how every single stroke had its purpose, regardless of what remains visible in the end. Gratitude surfaces and the next steps become clearer. What appeared to be a crazy, disjointed mess becomes intentionally simplified in order to place emphasis on what matters most. Decisions must be made regarding what to keep, what to lose, and perhaps, what to bring back.
I’m often asking myself questions. What works? What doesn’t? Sometimes it’s difficult to tell. I proceed anyway, because rarely is any move so permanent that it cannot be undone or recovered. A life lived unafraid of mistakes, is a life really lived and one of my constant aspirations!
In life and art, my perfectionist never tells me I’m good enough or that a piece is done, but I’m learning to ignore her deception. Life, my work, my art—they are not done, but this is where I am so far. Not where I used to be and not where I will be. I’m merely Finding the Gift each day, stopping at interesting places and letting my creativity flow. As I step out of my comfort zone to show more of my true colors, I hope others will be inspired to follow their own heART and do the same.
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